Days go by and I wonder why I haven't written anything here. The blog is my home page, so I see it every time that I open my browser; sort of a reminder to write something, but often it is just a reminder that I haven't.
Sometimes I am reminded of the two Narcissus plants that were given to Tolver and I annonymously at our 20th anniversary party. We never really tried to figure out who gave them to us (they could have been from George Takei, who we had invited because he had just come out a couple weeks before) although I sometimes wonder if they were from someone who was actually at the party, judging our reactions. I bring it up because I wonder just how much a blog like this is narcissism. I mean, you have to really love something about yourself to think that other people would really care. Maybe I haven't been loving myself enough to post anything; maybe, sometimes, life is just uneventful.
I've considered starting a blog on the Anuenue Protea site to help me record the day to day happenings on the farm. Mostly it would consist of entries such as: Tuesday, July 31, 2007 - last night's rainfall unappreciable, watched the plants grow, Tolver dug 14 more holes, inventoried the greenhouse. I guess its worth a try, if for no other reason than to discover whether a more disciplined approach on one site will help me be more regular on this one.
My time on the computer recently has been devoted to evaluating new DJ/VJ software. Supposedly, now that I have THE LAPTOP, I will be seeking out more gigs, which will require that I have a lot of new tricks in my bag.

Tolver's 39th birthday is in a couple more days. Unfortunately I used all of my unexpected windfall on the laptop, so I don't even have the $30 to buy him the cool green lighter that he saw at the antique store that I had wanted to surprise him with. I guess he will see this post, and the thought will count. He really wanted me to have the laptop, because he got my desktop as the hand-me-down, so I gues that was his present.

Thank you to all my friends; I can see when you stop by from the the blog logs. Several of you hit the page yesterday. You make me feel loved, even when I'm down.

link | posted by Reese at 1:31 PM

1 Comments:

 S commented:

First of all, happy B-day to Tolver. Who knew he would reach 39??!!??

Secondly, perhaps if you dealt with your feelings about the outside world in your blog, rather than your feelings about yourself, that might make it easier for you to blog (not that I should talk, hypocrite that I am).

Finally, don't hate yourself. You're a good person even if you don't blog and all your friends love you, you silly boy.

S

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