Monday, June 19, 2006
I wake up
I wake up, get dressed, eat, load the tractor, and head up the hill. As the finch flies - the ocean is a kilometer below me - and 11 miles to the south, making for 150 degrees of vast endless ocean spread out before me. So vast the view the curvature of the earth is apparent. Mp3 player in my ears, soundproof hearing protector on top, and an 80-pound jackhammer in my hands. I make holes, I look at the view, I fill the holes, I listen to my music, I plant flowers in the holes. Just me, the holes, and the beauty that surrounds me.
I have what I want in my life now. Some land, a house, a truck, a tractor, and a family.
But no matter where you go, there YOU are.
In 5 months I have adapted enough to my new environment to realize how much farther I have to go before I am 'Aloha.' So many of my behavior patterns that served me well in the concrete jungle just make life harder for me and those around me here in the rain forest. I met another Ryan, under 25, pretty, says he is straight, wants to be... educated. Fresh from the continent, I see in him how I was when I first arrived here. Compared to those who have been here awhile I can see where I lie between the two. How far I have to go before I can attain the blissful inner peace that I see in the long-term residents here. And how far I have come already.
I Have Come Home.
I Am Happy.
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